20 May 2020

We're having a baby! First Trimester Update

Well this is a blog post I couldn't have expected to write this year! If you follow me on Instagram you'll be fully aware that I'm 17 weeks pregnant with my first baby. And how delighted Simon and I are to finally be able to share our precious little secret with the world.

Growing a human during a global pandemic sure hasn't been easy, but with every emotional breakdown and mornings spent with my head in the toilet have been little moments of pure bliss. I've never felt such pure love and joy as I have since I found out I was pregnant, and it was the first time in my life I actually cried from happiness.

I wasn't planning on documenting my pregnancy, as it's not the "normal" topic of conversation around here. But having since announced our news on social media quite a few lovely women who are also expecting have reached out to me to say it's just nice to have someone to talk to that's going through the same thing they are.

So I thought I'd share my pregnancy video diary and updates on here too just in case it helps that one other person who might be feeling a little lonely or lost during this time.

Let's start at the beginning...

Early symptoms
I think the main one was that I just went off smoking completely, at around 1 or 2 weeks pregnant looking back. The thought of smoking or anyone smoking around me made me feel sick to my stomach!
My appetite also shot through the roof and I was craving really unusual foods (for me), I eat really healthily normally but I was eating pizza and pasties for lunch.

How I found out
The smoking and appetite signs made me think something was going on in my body, so I was already anticipating my period. When it was 3 days late I took a test - I was absolutely overwhelmed with happiness. Simon was playing a festival in Norway and wouldn't be home for another 4 days so I felt emotional and a little lost until he came home.

How I told my partner
I really didn't know how he would react, as it was really soon in our relationship. When he got back from Norway I insisted we ate at Nando's for tea (his favourite). I actually wrote him a letter telling him but I ended up just mumbling it from behind a pillow with tears in my eyes. He was shocked, silent for a few seconds and said "I'm going to be a Dad?"

Who we told first
Unfortunately due to lockdown we weren't able to tell any friends or family in person (I'm still waiting for a hug from my mum!). So we wanted to share the news in the most special way we could, we waited until we had the scan photo, took some nice pictures together in the park opposite the hospital and sent cards out to family. My mum and sister were the first to know, followed by my immediately family on our weekly video call. Everyone was so happy and excited!

Best reactions
Simon told his best friends via a weekly quiz on Zoom, he wrote a Disney round and his final question was "In the new film being created now, can you name the Disney Prince and Princess that are having a baby, which is set around Halloween?" - they were all buzzing!

12 week scan
Again, due to restrictions in place at the hospital, I went to the scan alone. When I first saw our tiny baby on the screen my heart broke - I was so overwhelmed with love but also really sad that Simon was missing this. It was really surreal, I didn't take my eyes off the screen once. All I could think was "we made you - you're in my tummy right now"

Worst symptoms?
Nausea. I got to discover that morning sickness isn't just in the a.m. In fact I felt worse during the evenings and would wake up a few times during the night to be sick. This happened every day between weeks 7 and 16.
Exhaustion was hard too as I'm usually so active, so to be laying on the sofa all day unable to find the energy to even pop the kettle on was really difficult. I could see everyone settling into their new lockdown routines and being super productive and all I was doing was watching t.v.
I can't stand the smell of cooking now, so I have to have really simple and plain food. Grazing and snacking to make sure my tummy is never empty helps with the sickness.

Any cravings?
Not really, at the beginning I loved strawberry and banana milkshakes, I've gone through phases of "Daddy meals" (i.e, foods I don't normally eat that I think the baby wants from Simon) such as burgers, curly fries, pasta. I would eat the same thing every day, but once you've vom'd your favourite meal it's hard to go back.
Right now I just love fresh fruit and apple juice.

Best thing I love most about being pregnant
The feeling that there's a tiny person inside me, that's half me and half the person I love most in the world. I can't wait to see him/her and grow into the best versions of ourselves.

Here's my first trimester video diary, it's mostly me complaining about how nauseous I am really.

Now I'm in my second trimester I've found like I feel a lot more like myself again, more energy and more motivation to create content. So if there's anything baby related you'd like to see in particular please let me know!

Thank you for following me along on my most exciting journey yet - and please do get in touch if you'd like a baby chat.

- H x

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